I was born into a poor family, struggling to make a living by farming. The teachers at our school required bribes from their students and my brothers and sisters and I were unable to pay them. Therefore, we were dismissed from school after studying for only a very short time. But I was so full of pride that I planned to become a famous movie star, so that I could be respected as a high-class person. I thought that everything I did and said was right and everyone else was wrong. I often became angry and spit out bad words to anyone who did not please me.
I received Jesus as my Savior through my big sister, Rotha. Eventually, my whole family believed in Jesus through the witness of Mommy Noren. Later on, I came to live at CCAM, where I received all kinds of education through my two spiritual mothers, Mommy Awmnaw (Gioia) and Mommy Noren. But best of all, they taught me the Word of God and how to discern and confess my sin.
Since I believed in Jesus, my life changed. I stopped using bad words and fighting with other people, because I learned that such behavior does not please God. But some of the wrong attitudes from my past continued to cling to me for a very long time-like thinking that I was always right and everyone else was always wrong. The only difference was that, instead of loudly advertising my anger, I quietly rehearsed the bad words inside my heart while wearing a haughty smile on my face!
Even when Mommy Noren and Mommy Awmnaw confronted me about my attitude, I stubbornly refused to listen to them. At first, I thought that they were very nasty whenever they did not agree with me. But then the Word of God convicted my heart that I should submit to those in authority over me, even if they were nasty! But now I know that Mommy Noren and Mommy Awnmaw are not nasty. The truth is that both of them really love me and are trying to discipline me to walk straight with God for the rest of my life. Not long ago, I read in the Bible that God only disciplines those He loves, so I began to realize that this must be true of His servants too.
Even after receiving so many blessings from God through CCAM, I was often very ungrateful. Sometimes I kept yearning for the things of the world, especially fame and fortune. I almost left CCAM three times to follow those illusions. But the grace of God always convicted me, so that I returned to Him with a broken heart and confessed my sin.
Now I know that my Lord Jesus Christ is the only One who can change me, because I tried many times and failed. I also know that He is the One who has called me to be a star in His crown, glorifying Him and not myself with the gifts He has given me. He has already raised me to a very high position in His kingdom, even though I do not deserve it. He has made me to be a princess in His royal family because of His love and mercy to me. So whatever I was yearning for in the past, He had already prepared just for me. But I had to humble myself, before He could lift me up to understand and appreciate His plan.
From now on, I am willing to submit to my Lord Jesus Christ and follow His calling to take the arts back from the devil to glorify Him through CCAM. Just as God has decorated my life with many gifts, now I want to use those gifts to decorate and worship Him.